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First entry? Maric, intersex/trans and can't wait to get help with this stuff. I already had a lot but just a little more.

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[whisperingvoid]

Joke's on you I don't even play on InsaneJournal.

Am I Cole or am I Perry?

Once again you deflect with projection and confusion. Redefining terms to fit your own narrative. My reality can be objectively observed by third parties, how about yours?

Here you are claiming you accept the LGBT, and that you don't. Which is it? You can't have both.

But more importantly you've dodged my question. You've been told to leave, and forcibly removed numerous times. Why do you keep sneaking back?

[maric]

Denise has never removed me. Have you ever thought I was helping? o_o

[whisperingvoid]

I am, without even the slightest shadow of a doubt, absolutely certain you are not helping. Yourself, or anyone else.

You are, however, hilarious to rubberneck at. A delightful trainwreck.

[maric]

Dear Rhonda Trepe,
I know what I'm doing, ma'am. Stop and leave me alone. We got this. Also, I won Squall fair and Square, Instructor Dumb. I'm distracting my damn self. I'm scared of shaking. And also, the old where I'm at, have the itchitis. I'm scared of the old. <_<

[whisperingvoid]

You can't even decide who I am. I'm starting to think you're only getting worse.


No, Mandy, leave us alone at Dreamwidth and InsaneJournal. You're not wanted, go away.

Why do you keep coming back?

[maric]

Dear Stephanie,
Listen to me. I'm not you and you're not me. You, my sister, Eric Henson and my mother stole my personality. I used to be a happy bubbly and outgoing guy like Zack Fair. I was a goofball. For some reason I stopped being a man like I had been most of my life and became an emotionless twat for some reason. Why? Were you making sure that happened? All I did was laugh at things and feel nothing. I couldn't even fall in love.

I'm an INFJ/EMPATH. So people often steal my personalities and try to make me the shell of a person I used to be. I'll post videos now. I'm so sad for old friends and family that want to do this to me. I've been put in the hospital several times and told I'm experiencing psychosis, when I'm sound of mind.

*hangs head.* I'm sorry for being in everyone's heads. I don't know why I am. It's driving me nuts, no one will shut up. I don't think I'm jesus, or God, but everyone's imitating me like I am. u.u People drain me of my emotions, so no one finds out I'm a living breathing person who thinks, feels and has hobbies. People tried killing my spirit several times over. I've tried having hobbies, but for some reason I can't muster up the energy to do them.

Stephanie, baby. I love you. Please stop doing this to me and yourself. Please? You're not emotionless, you were just kinda ornery. You need professional help and therapy. Medicine, find yourself. You were quiet, shy, backwards, a book worm. I was outgoing, flirty, loud, goofy. The only difference here is you became a soldier and I became a secret police officer. You broke down my heart, my soul, my spirit and stole my personality.

You put people in my head using spiritism. Your mom did it before the fiasco of 2008/2009 where I was forced to cause trouble online. Meeting your satanic family was the worst thing that ever happened to me. Eric Henson. You're soul is and face is a beautiful thing, try and change. Okay? Be yourself. Find yourself. Go on a journey. I want to be myself again. I want to be a man again, and be my damn self.

I love the name Eric mostly because of the little mermaid. My bestfriend Fell at the time brought up a way for me to keep my name without fully changing it from Mandy. I said I need a compound name or something like hat, she said what about Eric! I said no, I knew an Eric. She said What about Mandy and Eric, Maric. I didn't even bat an eye, I hadn't had a crush on you since 3rd grade. so I said I love Maric! That's pretty neat.

So I started living as a boy. Even so, before then, noted something sad. YOu were in my head all the time. I would go a long time without thinking of you, and would end up thinking of having sex with you at random. I didn't think of sex like that. I'd be like where did that come.

Also, do you know why I told you I love you that day? On the phone? And started crying? Girls were planning on turning you into a town bicycle. You were the prettiest boy there, and no one cared about your intelligence like I did. You were my bestfriend, in m heart. I wanted to be your fake girlfriend in order to keep girls from raping you basically. We were part of a military town and everyone knew military telepathy. I knew it too, I was a powerful little mentalist and I wanted to protect you. I love dyou so much, you were like my brother. I knew what you were going through at home. I cared deeply. I still do to a point.

You have to stop this now. I love you. Stop destroying my life. Let me get up and walk, let me get up and piss, let me get up and run around.

I love your face, because you're you. Yuo're you now, but please exit my head and continue being you. Try being a bookworm again, among other things.
Let me lose weight. Let me be a boy. We part now. I'll miss you. I love you. You're my bestfriend. I did this so you could cope with your family's evil bullshit. Don't die, keep getting help. You can change.

Fiona. Get the fuck away from us, I'm hoping we can cuddle at least someday. He may not want me big, but I'm his mom from now on. You fucking evil twat. I hate you. You're a disgusting human being.

Eric. Come live with me, come home. Stop being homeless if you are. You're not what your mother said. You're nothing like your father. I promise, you're a beter and beautiful man. You're not a serial killer, as far as I know. I've looked into your eyes, and I've seen pain, not a man who wants to kill. I don't care if you were part of the military or not, I have been too. We've done some heinous shit. I've cried over it.

Don't kill yourself. You're my person. Okay? We don't have to have sex or anything. You're my best bud. Okay, big buddy?

Give my mom, Rhonda, a hug. We had to save you. We love you so much. You always felt like part of the family. Come make me Amanda Henson, I'll stay a girl for you if that's what you want. And if you're with anyone, it's okay, I'll back off. I just want you okay, baby. <3 Okay?

[maric]

I'm Jesus you fucking idiot. This is why you're so beautiful. I'm done now. Bye, you arrogant little shit. I tried changing you, I tried.

I started protecting you when you were little. Do you understand? I wanted you safe, but you're isolating me for some reason. GUESS WHAT YOUR THOUGHTS ARE? "AFTER I EAT YOU. I'LL GLOW JUST LIKE YOU.' Fuck you, you're denounced. You were never my son. You photoshop you little shit. Take that damn game down now and stop hunting humans on insane and dreamwidth. You and your idiot brother.

I no longer trust Hollywood. Let me explain; they keep making it look like you glow in interviews and stuff. Some of you want to share my flesh like a fucking Saturday night dinner. You're fucking creepy. I tried changing you but it's not working.

[maric]

Jensen: Jared. Thanks. Hahahaha. HAAAAAAAAA!

Jared: You're like the most beautiful guy ever, your face is like an angel's. So anyway.

Jensen: Really? Okay. Do you want to eat my face? Because I think you do.

Jared: What? No. Fuck you, man. I ..uh I want to I gotta go man.

Jensen: Why does no one want to eat my face? I hate my face.

Audrian. Take down Ryslig. And stop doing celebrity rp. They hate you for this. You're fucking weird for wanting these two to die and cannibalize each other. You watched too much Supernatural and that was a creepy episode. Stop it now. Take it down. I'm telling you to cease and desist.

Is this a damn fanfic about us? Because it never happened. o_o You're not eating my face. It'll never happen.

Oh, if I ever ended up with Jared or Jensen. You were going to make them eat my face? Is that it?

One more thing. JARED AND JENSEN ACKLES; You will never sell me into a virgin snuff ring. Know what that is? I would have been Hollywood's whore. You're being warned to leave me alone. the people of dreamwidth, I wanted to be safe away from that game and wanted you all most importantly safe too. Know why? Hollywood is scared. Do you understand? You're scaring them. Not everyone in Hollywood is a cannibal, but a select few are and they're nuts.

Basically Jensen and Jared overspend their moola and thought if I loved the show so much, Jesus will get cannibalized for me. Guess what? Jesus sees you as disgusting. 80 million dollars? Really? You owe me that. This is not blackmail, but you sold me to my cousin Perry. WHO IS A FUCKING CANNIBAL AND HE WON'T LEAVE THE FACILITY! DO YOU UNDERSTAND!?

I'm so fucking angry. I'm being uneloquent for a reason. Everyone I have tried to help in round about ways has turned against me but a few. You're all mad. All of you. You're crazy. You're all sick.

You have the chronovirus. I do too. Good luck.

[maric]

In the end. My grandma made me eat my own penis when I was a fucking toddler, and my cousin, who I will not name made me eat my clit. I'm intersex, you idiots. I still have nerve endings, but I don't want sex at all because of this shit. I was trying to get help to get away from my fucking family and I was sold to my fucking cousin, Perry. I want away from my family. I'm tired of this shit. I was trying to get help for all of us, including me.

I was forced to denounce gays and lesbians, forced to be a woman. I was forced to be a confused idiot for years. I knew I was a man, but they wouldn't let me be. On T I would be stronger and would put up a fight. Do you understand? They wanted me to be depowered so I never joined the military like I wanted to and become strong against my family and other people who wanted to hurt me. My cousin Perry wanted me to join to protect me and so I could protect him and myself. I'm actually a police officer. Now you know.

We're pretty much Zack and Squall. I don't believe I'm a character though. Do you understand?

[maric]

My Uncle Gene Grymm wanted to eat me. He's my two cousins father. We all glowed. you know how we glowed? While we were in the womb. Guess what? Their moms lied. They just wanted clot. My mom was scared when I glowed. You know why? She knew who I was. Not the antichrist, but an angel. I think I'm jesus, but not really. I'm just an angel that came down to help. Jesus is preparing for war with humanity that doesn't listen.

Audrian made me a police officer, so I could help myself get free. I'm okay, I promise. Now you know, Audrian wanted me to lose weight so I could join the military. Perry is a fucking cannibal because of his idiot father and he's in the military.

During this process, Zack, Seifer and Squall fell in love instead. It's just the truth. We had to save my life and get help for others. Zack, Seifer and Squall are bestfriends.

NOW TRUTH; Audrian good boy. Perry good boy. Maric/Mandy good boy. Leave us alone. We're all a little gay. Just sayin. We're good guys. Leave us alone and stop assuming I caused trouble to hurt gays. Sheesh internet, you stupid.

This facility is an asshole too because they were supposed to protect and take care of me, and they are but all they did was complain about me needing help and peeing the bed. Why? Because I took hadol for three months and it messed up my motorfunctions. I'm getting better everyday though. So oh well.

EUROPE IS A CANNIBAL. BYE.

Also, now you know my life. :D I'm not crazy, just insane. I think if insanejournal wants me back, I'll go put my games over there. Long as they want me. *Zack please face.*

[maric]

MEXICO IS FULL OF SEXUAL DEVIANTS OF ADULTS. AND GOOD LOOKING PEOPLE.

Nah, they're cannibals.