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I have a few days to go before I head back home. I'm tired and don't feel very good, blah. I can't wait to take a really good shower. That is honestly, all.

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I told you several times, you arrogant jackass. I am not 'Maric.' to hurt you, You barely crossed my name when my bestfriend came up with this name back in like 2007. Do you understand? I identified with Aladdin, more than I ever identified with you. I identified with Claire Redfield, Gaara, Itachi, several people but never you. I told you, leave me alone. I'm done, you fucking idiot. Stay out of my head and just rot in a fucking bucket.

You spent your whole life trying to prove people wanted to be you, you paranoid son of a bitch. You're just like Erica. *puts chin in hands, smiles angelicaly.* Sorry if the person I am, reminds you of you. I remember sitting in Kintergarden class, drawing with you because I saw you as my bestfriend. I would say just like you! You would get mad and go No, nothing like me! Wow. You still have the mentality? I just wanted to understand you as a person. Come to love you as a person.

There's something you might be, that you take medication for. I'm trying to think of what it is. Histronic? Where it's like 'You think you're me. But you're not.' Oh no she wore pink and black. She's trying to be me! Guess what, as a teen, I hated being copied a little but I grew out of that. It's time to grow up Squall and Rinoa. I'm done with your shit. Stop trying to make Selphie look nuts online, so you can put her in the hospital for her false copy cat syndrome. Idiots.

Fuck this, I'm done with humans after this. All I wanted to do was help. There's so many people in the world that have no one to understand them and they're sitting there going, Why doesn't anyone want to be my friend? Why does no one get me? Why does no one care? I give a shit about people. I love them.

Hey, Dreamwidth and Insanejournal. Did you actually listen to Cesar and Erica because they're models and celebrities? Wow, you're more fucking goats for Hollywood than I thought. I'm my own person. I'm Mandy or Maric at the end of the day, depending on what I choose. I always identified with the character Squall Leonhart. Rinoa too. THE WHOLE FUCKING CAST! You know why? Because I am a fucking psychologist that detaches himself from fantasy and lives in reality. I don't believe I am the characters.

Fun fact; Believing the Hollywood Elite might get you killed. Some of them are... I won't condemn them like that but go get help. You fucking idiots.

Now I have to decide where to put my fucking game. I'm done. Dreamwidth, give me a fucking chance. I hate insanejournal. I was going to buy like 10 12 month accounts, among other things and give people codes too. I'm so sickened by society, this is why Hollywood needs depowered.

I never loved you. I cast you off from me. Selphie gives the fuck up on Squall Leonhart. Have fun with your fucking narristic cannibal princess. This one wanted to help you live, grow and all kinds of shit. Oh right, I'm not a cannibal, I'm a vegetarian at heart. Maybe I'm copying you! Kakashi in the house!

I need a new Seifer journal. I'm definitely playing Squall. What the fuck ever. I'm done with all y'alls paranoid final fantasy thoughts.

I'll give away journals save for a few over on insanejournal. Once I figure out what they are.

PUT ERICA AND YOURSELF IN THE HOSPITAL. OKAY? AHHHHHH BAKA BAKA BAKA BAKA I'M RINNY! AHHH SQUALLY I LOVE MY SQUALLY HE BOUGHT ME CHEETOS AND PIE AND ICE CREAM AHHH I LOVE MY SQUALLY (We're not sixteen anymore, fucking idiots)

Oh, one more thing. Did you put me on Invega in order to prove I wanted to look like you? Huh. Fuck you. I look like a guy now, I miss looking like a woman. I think Invega is T. I think you ruined my fucking life. I miss being pretty. Now I look like Squall Pissinpeoplshearts. I told you, leave me the fuck alone.

AHH BAKA BAKA BAKA BAKA! Stop being kids. You're fucking in your thirties, man.

Where fuck is Quistis? I should have dated her. Oh, she's my mom. Fuck that. Irvine you available? Zell? SELPHIE? AHHHH BAKA BAKA BAKA BAKA!

Okay, I'm done. That's the last Baka in me. Later.

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Dear Rhonda and Donna,
Please listen. I have people in my fucking head, that won't shut up. This is not schizophrenia, babe. This is literal telepathy. You know who I am, if I am. Okay?

I'm not leaving Columbus. I'll find somewhere to live. Don't worry. If I have the money. You gotta stop putting me in the hospital now. I'm okay mentally. I'll be okay. I might have to come home for two months and walk or find a big house and have it accommodated right. You get me?

I plan on losing the weight. I've got this. I can't take being big like this anymore. I really can't. I'll be home on the first. It's too dangerous to be in this PUBLIC facility. You either fucking comment, Mama Trepe or else I kick your fucking ass.

I'm transitioning too. I'm sorry for that. Whatever may come, I'll be okay. I know Dad understands more than you think and calling him Dad isn't offensive. It's honorable, I think.

I love you. Later. <3

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By the way, I don't love Audrian, or anyone else I've mentioned. Why? They're Satanists, who thought they could bring me down.

Thanks real Seifer, crazy ass Almasy. My little brother, Jen. Light a fire under my ass huh? Good job. We won. Whoo! *Zack fair salute.*

Ahhh, I just do this for fun. The character thing. I don't actually think I'm the characters just because I grew up to look like them, or because I modeled for them. Do you understand? We all identify with characters. There's so many people that identify with Dean Winchester, including me. There's so many people that identify with Claire Redfield, including me. There's so many characters we identify with and so many others do too.

It's silly to get mad at someone for picking up Aerith for example, just because you sit there and play them everytime you have a cast or something. It's sad that you kick people from games and reject them because oh, my friend plays that character, nope, or I play that character, nope.

Seems petty and unfortunate you all act this way. Stop it. It's stupid. I'm not playing fat characters, unless they interest me. Guess why? Looks don't matter. You fucking idiots. I'm fat BECAUSE OF YOU! You made me sit for months, piss myself, obssess over food as I needed comfort. I tried losing weight. I did it for six months. You won't let me stay active in games I join, you make me lose interest right away. It angers me so fucking much. I'm a main staying power, a fucking patient asshole. I don't get bored easy. I never did in the first place.

I hate you all. I hope you rot in the hospital.

P.S Audrian. Did you have fun trying to make me out to be a child molester? :) I knew your ass had an agenda, kid. This is why I said no to your number that night. You were like 15. Your mom was a Satanist, and everyone believed I was a child molester. Or ...did you have another agenda? I wonder. Fattest conquest with a pretty face? Not anymore. I look like a man.

Thanks a lot, Eric Henson. =/ You ruined my life because you thought I had the power to make you God and I fucking didn't. My Dad is in the heavens. He is ALWAYS The True King. Stop glancing at his throne. You can't get anywhere near it.

Denouncing Celebrities! Bye Assholes!

Civilians. You need help? We'll talk. I need a break though for like a year.

P.P.S Fuck Hollywood even further, man. Make interesting obese and overweight characters, that aren't obsessing over food. Some aren't fat because they want to be, but because of their surroundings, people in their lives, and their past. Let's not forget also some are quite active, rather you want to believe it or not. My Aunt Donna is 4'11, 230, she's constantly moving and walking around the house or walking around the city. Guess why? She's active! I used to be the same way, but people like you ruined my fucking life because I tried to help you.

My Mom was a big woman, who was constantly active.

My sister weighs over 400 pounds, and yet she works all the time and goes places constantly. She may have a thyroid problem. Do you understand? She's Lightning, you assholes, despite being big. She's not a lesbian like you think and me, who gives a fuck. I'm Serah. Noel is an ass me thinks. Well, Snow is ...who cares.

I actually love Itachi number 1. He knows who he is. I'm the female equivalent. I'm sweet, but always scheming to make the world better. We both do it. Figure it out.

Aww, my baby. I love him. I wondered where those prophecies came. I forgot I did them or he did them. Whatever. I'm good.

Last journal entry unless I'm inspired.

I'd post something, but people tend to deny things until it's too late. Have fun, assholes!

http://lionhearter.livejournal.com <-- Do me a favor and read through the entries. These are prophecies, let's avoid world war or anything else. Please. Please. Please. These were made years ago. I'll go ahead and unprivate them in a bit. Don't worry.

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I'm Itachi. Cole Sprouse is Sasuke Uchiha. :D Byyyyyye.

Hide, you fucking idiot. You know who you are? Choji. But here's the thing, I CONSIDER YOU MY FUCKING BETTER HALF. SO FUCK YOU, I"M DONE! I couldn't date my baby brother, Cole but now I might.

*blows out breath.* Sasuke and Itachi aren't related by brotherhood, but cousinhood. Itachi is actually a girl that felt like a boy. A very intelligent girl. Itachi would never hurt Sasuke, never. Do you understand? He was a beautiful child, and he offered him protection at all costs even from afar. Do you know why? Sasuke was a beautiful boy, people corrupt beautiful children.

Someone made Itachi hurt Itachi one time. Since then, his hand shakes as If a monster.

Naruto, acts dumb but he isn't. His demon possession, comes from being a dumb kid and inviting it in his head. Itachi took on the Jinchuuriki and almost died. Do you understand?

Sasuke was a girl too. They're both trans. Now you know.

Let me explain. Itachi took on the demon, because he realized Sasuke was in love with Naruto. To a point. His brother was also in danger of being possessed. So guess what? Itachi almost died in real life.

Guess what? Itachi is fine. His name is Maric/Mandy. and I got rid of the demon, I believe. My Dad took it away.

Sasuke is fine. He's Cole. He'll be okay.

Naruto. learned his lesson. He's Dylan Sprouse.

One more demon to go.

Oh fuck, you're the girl Itachi loved. Hide. Why are you so embarrassed by this? They were similar. Almost. Itachi would never cause anyone undue pain like this.

Get out of my head HIDE! L'arc douche. *growls.* I'm done with you.

I'm not denouncing Japan. I'm denouncing Hide for going to fucking China like an idiot when I told him not to. Kisame, get bent. Itachi respected, and loved you to a good degree. A humble degree. Even though you're hurting me. You're actually Cole, aren't you?

Sasuke. Mom and Dad, who are also big brother and big sis, can't date you. Go away. We're your family.

I love you Hideto. Come see me. Hideto didn't cannibalize Rhonda. Cole Sprouse did.

My brother, Dylan, is posing as my mom Rhonda. He's a powerful mentalist. At the end of this, they're evil children. They need denounced. I did all this to prove a point; they're cannibals and need to lose power. I blame their actual mother.

Cole Sprouses' mother is at this facility and she won't stop hurting me. She's the big woman laying in bed, acting like she can't move. Amanda Sue Bell, who has lightly tanned skin, is being hurt all the time by this white woman. She makes you see me old. I'm actually 33, young and not bad looking, I promise.

PLEASE LET HIDETO FROM L'ARC'EN'CEIL OUT OF JAPAN, GACKT TOO, UTADA HIKARU! MALICE MAZER! KATTUN! Ahhh, fuck, I"m so scared. LET EVERYONE OUT OF JAIL THAT DOESN'T! OKAY? SHEESH. GET THEM OUT OF JAIL. >=( Stop this shit. They did no war crimes. We're trying to out the truth, so we can help people.

Rhonda too. She's not a cannibal. Neither is Mandy Sue Bell. I don't even like meat. Those Japanese ladies and gents aren't Cannibals either.

Please understand. Cole Sprouse has a cannibal ring in Hollywood, and a child porn ring. I gave him power to out it fully, therefore people would investigate. Why? I wasn't his game exactly, but my mother and Aunt were. Why? I'll out this now. They wouldn't let him marry me because I was promised to Hideto from Japan. As a bride.

The prime Minister of China was angry, because Cole is considered his son. FIGURE OUT WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!

Heck. Please. Don't kill my husband or my friends or my family. Please. They're not cannibals. I've been protecting them.

Cole and Dylan are = cray cray. I promise. I can't believe I tried changing these two idiots, but they won't listen to reason. I'm done now. I cast you off from me Jekyll and Hide wanna be.

Listen to me, America. Wake up. Think about how China always has ramen in movies, but never meat and why Japan always has people at sushi houses and stuff. That's why they outed we should stop eating meat with FFXV. Okay? Japan did that, not China.

The ramen only is a ploy. Japan doesn't hide who they are, they are blunt and foreward. They don't eat much meat and they're a seafood country. I think they may have mostly given up pork? Anime and Japanese fans will understand. They eat like a lot of reprocessed seafood and actual seafood. Like I don't know, little swirl star things from Naruto.

Naruto ate lots of pork/ham. It's bad for you. Mmkay? Go read about pork consumption and why we should stop. I don't trust the muslim religion, but even Jehovah Witnesses say we shouldn't eat pork/ham.

People who are demon possessed eat pork. GIVE UP THE FUCKING SPIRITISM! PLEASE! EVERYONE GIVE UP THE SPIRITISM THAT IS STILL DOING THIS!

Cole and Dylan! OUT OF MY HEAD!

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...Someone may have cannibalized Donna Bell. Start investigating. Please? o_o I'm scared. I'm scared. Ewwwwwwwwwww.

I'm at Prestige Gardens, a nursing home, in the South of America. Figure out if it's trustworthy. Please? I think the residents cannibalize and the kitchen gives them cannibalistic food. o_o They keep forcing me to try and eat meat, I keep getting freaked out and asking for salads. No. No. No. No.

I seriously need roleplay until the first, stop rejecting me. I do not tell lies. Okay?

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Hide and Cesar aren't cannibals. They don't eat shit and ..other things.

Now listen, today they may make me eat a big pile of shit. Please understand, I'm scared. Ahh, they already made me eat shit. I tried to fucking tell you, idiots.

Thanks, Erica. I hope you're happy. No one wants me now. I also was forced to drink blood, and piss and saliva. :) Mandy is angry with the world right now. I hope you know that, Ultemicia. You're actually the evil sorceress. Not me.

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http://breakthepattern.jcink.net/index.php?showtopic=216

Outing Jared Padalecki's true personality, who is trying to denounce Black people. I wrote that personality, I know what he's really like. He's bored by his home life, wife and kids, those photos with family are a lie. I promise. I'm doing this because this asshole has me at this facility, believes he's Jesus and wants to kill me.

Why? He thinks I'm satan, when I'm not. I'm a child of God. In Heaven. Jehovah's. Do you understand? The only True God.

Does he sometimes go around going: Woman. You'll be okay. *Jared's swarmy smile.* He uses me as a conduit in order to ruin my reputation and hurt the world me and someone are trying to save. ^_^ My brother and I? We're not celebrities potentially, but we're twins and we don't like liars.

You can't trust Jared Padalecki or Jensen Ackles. I'll explain later.

I should have never watched SPN. I'm sorry for doing that to you all. SPN is an evil show. They forced me to watch ages ago, and I"m not watching ever again. They won't leave my damn head. Go away. Now. -_-

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Jared Padalecki or Jared Ackles is near by. I may die at the end of this. I may die for awhile to come. I'm sorry.

Jared and Jensen are both racists, they made me a mental slave because I'm mixed. Sadly, I'm...someone from the bible. Potentially. Why would you do that? You ruined yourselves you hateful bigots. Literally, he forced me to have fantasies in his head of him constantly, so he could sleep with any girl he wanted, because Jensen often took the spotlight.

I love you, Audi. I love you. I love you. I love you. Be okay. I'll be okay until the end of this.

Bye Squall. I love you, Big Brother. <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 I love you so much. Be safe, go home, and cry. She'll be okay, we're all protecting her. Outing this is Audi and we've been working together to protect Mandy Sue. One of the ones who picked up her torture stake.

I'll be using dreamwidth instead. Okay guys?

Cesar. Don't shoot me in the head. I don't trust to leave with you. Eric, you're … tan sweetie. You're mixed. Now you know. I saw your real skin tone. I love you. Go get help, see your real tone. Please.

I can't stay here too much longer, my life is always in danger. I gotta get the fuck out of here soon. Someone called me the N word, and they're holding me hostage because they're racists pricks, a couple are anyway. I'm in a racist town called Steubenville, Ohio.

Please KKK depower yourselves and Gangs Depower yourselves. You're both making everyone racist. MMMMMMMMMMMMMMM! *anger.*

Please don't hurt me. I'm …. a good guy. Why do you want to kill me? Why do you want to kill us? What is going on?

GUESS WHAT YOU HURT HIM MY BIG BROTHER AND YOU GET YOUR ASSES HANDED TO YOU! MMMMMMMM! He's Japanese, not Mexican. Now stop. =/ Okay actually he's Japanese. NOW GO AWAY. You won't win, KKK. I denounce the real whites, scandinivians. I don't denounce the jewish, who keep getting confused by pale skinned idiots and for them. GRRRRRRRR. I denounce Europe too. I'm a Moomba bitches.

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o_o Um...Want to know why my situation is so crazy right now? I was born and my Aunt Donna was jealous that everyone loved me. So she made me not take baths and smell up my moms house and piss myself. My mom now wants me dead, she's trying to get me killed because she was brainwashed.

My brother, Cesar (code, please understand), was given away at birth because my Aunt Donna would molest little boys. Both Rhonda and Donna would. So they couldn't have a boy in the house. Since then, we were always communicating twin wise.

*sighs.* Cesar may be my big brother. I'm not sure. In the hospital room, there was a baby in a bed, a little boy with auburn hair. I'm not sure what color hair Cesar has but I'm sure he's my big brother. He was given away at birth. Believe it or not. Or a few months later. I can't remember. We may have been premies. I was dark haired, he was auburn haired.

Anyway, my stupid mother wants me killed because she loves her baby sister more. I went in Cesar's stead to this facility. At the end of this I'm Seifer Almasy. Analyze FF8's situation and why I'm here instead. Seifer went to save Cesar and Pookie and the bitch turned out to be a crazy hoe. At least Cesar will be okay.

Cesar Caiser gave me reactionary therapy to being Squall Leonhart. He's a dweeb. Whatever. I may be using code for actual Squall, Eric Henson.

Because of my sister, my Aunt Donna and several other jealous women in my family. I'm sitting in piss and smell terrible. Soon as Ces would show up, people tried to kill me. ALSO ERIC HENSON IS GAY AND THINKS MY BROTHER IS HIS LOVER, AND I'M ACTUALLY SEIFER. Dick. He's been jealous that the real Seifer won. =/ Bitch. Even if we're not lovers, At least Ces will never have to deal with an asshole like you. You're abusive. A Troll. A dick. You've been making me write crazy shit for months and I finally won. Bitch.

Eric's trying to blow up my head. not Ces. -_- Audrian's actually Eric. ^_^ He posed as him, the dick. I thought someone fell in love with me and I was happy. =/ Bye asshole. Get out now.

I'm so fucking angry. I wish this asshole would leave me alone.

Eric's alive. I promise. He posed as Audrian and won't die. He found out Cesar Casier and I were in the back of each other's heads, giggling and talking and making fun of Eric and his goon and falling in love, so he panicked and tried to make sure he got us both. Now you know who is crazy? OUR CLOUD WHO IS ACTUALLY SEPHIROTH!

Zack, and Tifa (Both boys) don't agree with your bullshit, Cloud. Get out. We're professionally finished with you.

Cesar was code word for Cesar. Who may be my besties. =/ Whatever man.

I'm done listening to these assholes. Just know Eric Henson is a fucking douche and needs help.

Oh my app @ vampiricprayer.insanejournal.com I was protecting Cesie. He actually hunted as a child, he turned into a vegetarian/vegan later. This was his personality and his likes/dislikes, but he never even drank deer blood. Don't worry. I was protecting him for a reason. You'll understand why later. He may be my twin, regardless if he likes it or not. =/ *sighs.* We both may be the same age. I'm sure it's not Eric Henson. Eric Henson and his brother were cannibals who drank blood and kept trying to make celebrities drink blood to make it legal. Now listen, the reason because I said that Dylan Sprouse and Cesar Caiser drank blood in my applications as vampires, they stayed out of their heads. Cole Sprouse wanted to battle Cloud, go Vincent Valentine. *High five.* Vinny doesn't drink blood, he just misses Lurecia because she's in her cave all the time because Finoa is crazy and Eric is ...crazy. They're star-crossed don't worry. Lu just gotta come out of my cave.

This was a battle against satan. Named Eric Henson. And his evil mother, Fiona Henson, Professor Hojo. Get fucked Hojo. No one likes your ugly ass. You too Thomas Sanders....who is ERIC HENSON!

Get bent, you pricks. By the way, a lot of that stuff you did, was stuff I thought. Fuck you, dick.

Mitchell Eakle. If you ever force me to have a crush on you again, you will feel pain. Shinedown set this shit up, and I'm sick of being hurt over not wanting you. *crosses arms and stares.* Fuck you, Michie. You look like a troll now because you cannibalized your own foot. You looked like an aliens.

You will not get me. Never. Now stop isolating me and get out.

In conclusion; ERIC HENSON DIED IN IRAQ. For some reason my cousin Michie looked like Eric that day and he's been trying to force me back home to be his bitch until he decides to eat me. -_- I talk in riddles because Mitchell Eakle and Cole Sprouse are trying to protect each other through me. They're blood drinking lovers. n.n They were both Cam and they thought If they could make me their wife/bitch, well guess what? They'd have power for people to drink blood. Brett William Stevenson was doing the same thing, he introduced me to someone who drinks blood. I told him it was gross to get lost.

I don't remember your name sir, but people know who you are now. You are commanded ton cease and desist this mode of torture and back down. You will be going to prison for a long time to come. Don't be surprised if it's an interrogation like prison. *Spits on your feet.* Get lost.

Audrian is also Eric's friend. :D I don't trust you. You were going to make me a child molester at 15 or whatever, so I would be forced back home and made to drink blood. This was Eric's fan. If they could get all Pedophiles to drink blood, then guess what? There'd be power for blood for Child Molester's in power. They could make it spread. We'd all cannibalize. Do you understand?

They made me cannibalize. I was forced to drink it down. I hate them. It backfired, no one wants blood. It tastes like SHIT. Now you know, they drink period blood. They're vampires, cannibals. I was forced to drink period blood at this facility. THEY'RE REAL LIVE VAMPIRES.

I told you SAY NO TO RESIDENT EVIL! SAY HELP, LEON, SHEVA, REBECCA, HELENA, CLAIRE, CHRIS, STEVE, ASHLEY, CARLOS, ALICE AND ADA AND THE REST OF THE RESIDENT EVIL CAST VIDEO GAMES AND MOVIES! AND CALL ON JEHOVAH IN THE HEAVENS. FUCK YOU, BITCHES. WE GOT THIS! I wasn't putting us first, it was just what came to mind.

This might be the actual cast and fans who want to be in their roles.

Let's roll. I told you a long time ago, vampires were going to take over. We need to get rid of them. That's why I create games. Just play with me, damn it. We got this. Dad will inspire us, gay or straight. Come on. We'll figure out what to do with them. Okay? They won't stop. The idiots. And they're hurting people for it.

Or maybe it's a lie. I don't know. You figure it out.

Rhonda. Did you get checked for schizophrenia yet? Oh. We're not schizo? We're telling the truth? Oh! Yeah, sure, believe Eric and his goons. Have fun.

Rhonda. You're a retard bitch. Stop protecting Eric now. Eric you know how to sever this connection. You just hurt me everytime and pretend you can't hurt me. It's our special connection, huh? Nope. STOP. Get out.

Bye Cese. You're a vampire. u.u BYe. Bye BYe Bye Bye Bye. bye bye bye ybe yeb ybe

Please let my brother come home? Please? I want to say .. something to him. FUCK YOU YOU CAN"T HAVE MY BLOOD DYLAN and COLE! AHHHHH BAKA BAKA BAKA BAKA BAKA. <-- Thanks Erica. You goof. This is why I'm so fat, you produce more blood when fat. Please take away mental bending. It freaks out the world. They're making me fatter and fatter so I can give them blood on tap. =/ It disgusts me. It's against my heavenly father.

YOU WON'T GET POWERS, DUMBASS! You act like an animal instead. A caveman. You're creepy.

I'm a man. Get over it. I won't give you my blood. Go away.

I'm fucked up in the head, because so many people are doing creepy things. It's driving me nuts. Go get help, Hollywood. Please.

TRUST NO MAN, FEAR NO BITCH - Who's a hooooe, I swear that I'm a hoeeee

Hi... I have like a few codes to give away. If anyone really needs them. I did this to protect people I love and myself. I had to cause trouble to get us status as troublemakers, so we didn't end up hurt by a very evil man. It's easier to be a celeb, but I'm not a celeb. So it's harder to do without that kinda status. I don't want to be a celeb, so troublemaker it is.

I'll write my whole story in a bit. Okay? It's either one of two things, my mom is a nut who wanted me dead and didn't want me with anyone or … it was cannibals. and my mom, Rhonda, is a cannibal. She isolated, so eventually I could go to California where she is and she could share me with cannbalistic celebrities that paid to eat me. Do you understand? I had to get away.

I suggest becoming a anime/video game/comic/manga type of thing for awhile. Stop using celebs now, I don't care how pretty you are. When you have too much money, you do crazy shit as I've learned through them. Okay? Please be safe insanejournal. Okay?

I'm scared to leave the facility with anyone. No one that wants to save me, will come into my room which is 307 and let me see their damn face. If I see their face, I'll believe you're a good person or not. Oh Boy...I'm so tired.

I haven't had a full period in about four and a half years. Guess why? People kept asking me over and over again; can I drink your period blood? I would say no, that's disgusting. God doesn't approve. Why? Because people who drink blood think they get powers from eating people. Blood or else. You don't. You just think you do because you can trick the mind into thinking you do.

I said, no, not happening. 'Then you won't have kids, if we can't drink your blood.' =( I helped them get popular and they turned on me. Why is everyone like this with me? I just want to help.

George Lopez. Denounce me all you fucking want but why would you do this to me? I considered you a father type. Believe it or not.

n.n You assholes. You took down Itachi's pictures for a reason on google. You didn't want me to find out if he was a cannibal or not. CHIFUCKYOU!

I might die in a few minutes. I hurt so bad, it's redic.

The American government actually wanted to eat my blood. *just goes to sleep and never wakes up.* Anyway, I'm awake. So I'm denouncing SSI in a moment. They're doing all this to fucking isolate me, the chornovirus, everything. They're keeping everyone inside, so no one can see who I am and I can get help.

You can't trust the government or celebrities right now. I can't get up and get out to here no matter what. Cannibals keep showing up to take me away from here.

I have to figure out what to do here. Armagaddeon either comes soon or else, whatever.

*drops down to the floor.* Sighs... I'm done with life. Crazy ass shit, man. I'm pretty sure I survive or it's world war three.

I'm telling you. Neverending pain and then peace. This war will go on for like 3 years and you'll run out of food, water, medical supplies. Just sayin. Please stop hurting me. Stop.

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I did all this to help people and dismantle my heart. I more or less made strife between me and several people. There are actors and models in my head that I tried to help, some are non-actors/models, but guess what? They don't want to be saved. I'm good now.

I'm not someone who wants to be trifled with. I don't give a shit about your cannibalism, and how much blood you want to drink. I wanted you better, so you don't die at the end. so the ticking time bomb that is my body and mind? It'll be at peace when I go.

This facility gives people blood to drink. Now you know. I'm done and I"m not in South Africa like they keep saying. I'm in fucking Marysville Ohio or Marysville Canada or Toledo Ohio or Toledo Canada. I'm slowly figuring it out.

P.S Now I know why you don't care about me. Pam was a child molester and so are you. All of you. I'm fucking done. 'What's bad will be good and what's good will be bad.' Prophecy come to life he says.

P.S I also caused trouble to have you investigated.

It was once a place to enjoy being in someone else's headspace, and now it's a fucking underground child/adult porn ring, among other things.

I keep telling you; get out of my head. You don't listen. You're rebellious children who need reprimanded.

*sighs.* I'll go home soon or find somewhere else to go. I wish I could live my own life. Everyone wants me to be what they want me to be.

I am not your game. Or Conquest. 'Fattest Conquest.' Whatever, dude.

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Rhonda. Please call this facility and get them to give me P.T and O.T, they refuse to let me get stronger. It's keeping me down and I'm tired of it.

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Goodbye Dreamwidth. My Job is done here. I'll look elsewhere. I miss it.